The closer I get to the dream of publication, the more I also notice the fear. Spending the weekend at Boskone and talking to successful writers in some way only sharpened the fear. And yet, I can't let it stop me from moving forward.
Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try Again. Fail again. Fail better. -- Samuel Beckett *
Years and years ago, when I was a senior in college, a friend convinced me to submit a group of poems in a university competition. Those were the years I didn't share my work with many others. I also was not much of a risk taker (that fear again) and would probably not have submitted but for my friend's insistence and my own belief my work would never be chosen.
I won the Dean's Prize in creative writing at the University of Rochester for that work.
While I have written many, many poems since then, along with one children's story and nearly 4 novels, I am still proud of that poem.
I am also proud of the novels I have written and I'm willing to risk both failure and success to bring them to the world.
Perhaps fear is necessary, but I don't have to let it rule me.
If I notice the fear, perhaps it's because I'm moving in the right direction.
*(Poet Mom introduced me to the Beckett quote--thanks, January!)